Loneliness has been a part of my spiritual journey. At times it profoundly impacted every aspect of my physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual self. The tissues, bones, and liquids of my body felt immersed in loneliness until I felt there wasn’t any me, just the overwhelming loneliness. It has a feeling of a dark fog, cold, and all encompassing. I felt I was born with this loneliness of unknown origin.
Many ways out of the loneliness were offered to me by family, friends, activities, books, movies, and so forth. It used to take me a long time to come out of this depth of loneliness. It felt important to me to find out “why” I felt such loneliness as by all outer appearances, I had most everything anyone could want. Why wasn’t it enough to be here as a human with all the involvement that goes with marriage, family, friends, career, church, recognition, travel, and so forth?
The “why” was my longing to be “home” on The Other Side. It was a soul deep knowing that I was missing the genuine unconditional love, telepathic learnings, transmissions of knowledge, and unimaginable adventures that I experienced before coming to this human body, and during the near-death experiences I had. The loneliness dissipated somewhat after my first near-death experience.
After my second near-death experience, I no longer carry the loneliness. Now I am connected with Spirit in every moment and feel that unconditional love flow through me whenever I allow it. It is the same with telepathic learning, transmissions of knowledge, and unimaginable adventures, they come to me whenever I ask and allow them. Sometimes they come by way of dreams, sometimes by way of a person, book, and so forth. But I know they come from The Other Side by the manner in which my body feels during and after the experiences.
My body is infused with an all-enveloping contentment and peace in every cell, tissue, bone, and all of my Beingness. Loneliness doesn’t come into my awareness. It doesn’t live inside me anymore as I have chosen to embody Spirit. I have chosen to be an open vehicle with The Other Side.
Simple steps with more than I ever dreamed possible available for me. I don’t need anyone or anything else, even though I choose to have others and things in my life. It is the greatest comfort I have ever known, this life as a human and a Spirit from The Other Side, both integrated as me.
From Angel Voices, The Advanced Handbook for Aspiring Angels, by Karen Goldman, to me this paragraph says it so perfectly:
“We are living not to accumulate memories, but to awaken
while living; to experience ourselves outside Time, where we
are complete, ageless, with all potential. To know our greater
Being enjoined with the All. To experience one life, one truth,
one love, and to identify this, finally as the center of ourselves.”
Reggie gets lonely when I am gone for a while, so he goes to sleep and plays on The Other Side. He wakes up when I come home ready for me to love him and him to love me. There is an ease in his connection with Spirit. It just is with him. It just is with me. We are so very grateful. Nancy and Reggie♥