Dreams

This Christmas will be the 50th one that we are all together, so I am getting ready as I want it to be special and memorable.  My usual way is to give each of the children and grandchildren a card and money.  But this year Spirit is calling for a deeper level of giving, a searching of my heart and soul for the meaning of my life with each member of this family.

I have been doing that the past month or so, going within to follow the journey from my marriage and the dreams and goals I had at that time to today.  The path was smooth and joyful, rocky and rough, lost in the fog, and then clear with a horizon to forever.  I celebrated the times the path was smooth and joyful.  The rocky and rough paths called forth a greater degree of perseverance, of endurance, and of love in each situation.  Spirit infusing me with the will to continue through the challenging times, the opportunities for growth, and the moments of apathy.

For me, being lost in the fog was the most difficult as I am a person who has always had clear visions, I most always know where I am going and why.  Being lost in the fog required me to ask for help, to stop, go within, and surrender to Spirit as I could not find my way.  This called me to a higher level of connection with Spirit, one that drew me closer in my heart and soul, one that invited me to stillness to listen with my Beingness, and one that opened me to feel Spirit in the moment.

I discovered that I didn’t need an inner map as I had Spirit with me in every moment as I opened my heart and soul, listened, and allowed myself to feel the incredible bliss.  I discovered that I know in each moment what it is that I am to think, do, or say.  The fog freed me to open to a clear horizon forever in each moment in my pure connection with Spirit.

So, this Christmas I am sharing the dreams and goals I had for the family I married into before I give them their gifts.  The love that flows through the dreams and goals over the years are ones from the depth of my heart, far more valuable to me than the material gifts, as they come from Spirit through me with all the love of the lineage here in the physical and those in Spirit.  Love flowing through every breath, every step, and every known and unknown thing, no matter the outer appearance, accomplishing goals and fulfilling dreams over 50 years, over a lifetime.  A gift beyond measure!

Reggie loves getting ready for Christmas as he feels my joy, excitement, and happiness.  He follows me from room to room while I do all the things necessary to get ready.  He is happy to be going where he will get love and attention from more people.  He gets excited when he knows he has a Christmas gift.  His little tail ways back and forth, his little feet dance around the package while he sniffs to see what it is.  He gets ready and poses for his Christmas picture.  Each of us getting ready in our own way for Spirit to increase the flow in, through, and around us with the most precious gift of all – love in its many forms.  Nancy and Reggie♥

The other night I brought back a dream and it stayed with me all day.  A part of me was still in the dream as I felt not fully present to my life here like I normally do.  It was a dream in which my deceased husband and I were in a property that he had bought and looking at what needed to be changed and updated.  The land was wonderful, but the house needed much work from changing the plaster on the walls, to tearing off the roof and walls of a porch that had been enclosed, and putting in a new entrance to the home.  I woke up as I was telling the workmen how I wanted to steps to look.  There were other parts to the dream.  It was so real!

It came to me that I was fully present in the dream and more interested in being there than here, thus a part of me stayed for that day.  I find that even when I am fully present here, a part of my mind my goes off to another place, person, or situation for a moment.  Staying fully present all the time so that I am aware of what is going on in this reality is rare for me.  The other realms and planes call to me as I feel so light and free as a spirit; here is heavier and requires more effort from me as a human.

So, I balance time when I am here in the human capacity and when I out in the spirit world.  The balance brings me joy as I honor both parts of myself.

Reggie has no trouble balancing time as a dog and a spirit for he sleeps a part of the day where he is off playing as a spirit, then he is fully present when he wakes up back here.  He is never part there and part here.  He will bark at me if I am out in the spirit world and he wants me to play with him.  He makes me laugh as he knows how to take care of his needs.  Nancy and Reggie♥