This coming weekend, I am stepping out to speak about my two near death experiences for the first time, one local and one in another city. It is interesting the stages I have gone through to get to where I am willing to speak about intensely personal experiences.
So many thoughts went through my mind – why would I want to talk about them – why would anyone want to hear about them – what is the importance of speaking about them, rather than just letting people read the book – what message does Spirit want to be sent – can I do this – will I do this – how much will this cost and on and on.
Finally, I just made up my mind to speak about the experiences a couple of times in a couple of different places and see what reception and feedback I get. Then I will know if I am to continue to speak about them or let it go. (Spirit already knows…smile!)
Speaking brought up thoughts about what to say, how much detail to include, dressing appropriately, making sure I have all the books, brochures, business cards, pens, mailing list sheets, and so forth. All of the human actions that would need to be planned and prepared were mine to do and I wondered if I had the stamina to do it all.
I decided to meditate this afternoon and spend dedicated time with Spirit about these things. Reggie joined me. All of the stream of thoughts I had running through my mind dissolved into nothingness, an order of speaking came to me, and the physical things I needed to get done I did after Spirit infused me with “knowing” it would all unfold perfectly in each moment. I was enfolded in such love that I knew I was being blessed for speaking. It is part of what I agreed to return to do.
During the meditation Reggie curled between my legs until after I was enfolded in this beautiful love. Then he hopped down and stretched out on the floor. All was in Divine Order in his world and in mine. Spirit’s grace, knowledge, and love are always with us whether or not we choose to open to them. Nancy and Reggie♥